Dare to be Scared

Recently I have come to realize how much emotion scares me. Not to a point where I am afraid to feel, but just enough to wish I would. This sounds negative, maybe a downward progression, rest assured it is not. Actually it is good, because it is real. This fear is true, it is complex and confusing. It makes me laugh to think God knew this would happen....the twisting and turning of hearts, and mangled relationships, the tears, the pain...and then imagining that through it all we find happiness. What a trip. Joy? That in itself is just as hard to dive into. The idea that we are worthy of affirmation, maybe true love. And then again it could all be a myth. No. Impossible. It is all real. Emotions: pain, shame, grief, bliss. Feel, Fear, Dare. Dare to be scared, even if it is just for a moment.